tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-58512532024-03-13T09:12:20.690-04:00truth-consciousness-blissAnd when he sees me in all and sees all in me, <br>
Then I never leave him and he never leaves me. <br>
And he, who in this oneness of love <br>
Loves me in whatever he sees, <br>
Wherever this man may live, <br>
In truth, he lives in me ... <br>
-Bhagavad Gitamargarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.comBlogger307125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-8845430773643753652008-09-08T21:04:00.002-04:002008-09-08T21:07:41.854-04:00movingHey everybody. I've decided to move my blogs over to wordpress (specifically because they offer more room, which I need for Darwin's blog).So from now on you can find me here!margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-39930383971100555572008-08-26T10:09:00.002-04:002008-08-26T10:13:24.038-04:00Home after five days in Seattle visiting the parents. Five days of being away from this cesspool of problems, five days of enjoying myself, five days of sharing my parenting duties with someone who really shares them (my bf, Khat), five days of being cocooned in a wonderful city surrounded by people who love me and wanted nothing more than to help in any way they could.And now I'm home and margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-9788024094489470712008-08-17T23:23:00.001-04:002008-08-17T23:23:24.937-04:00Imagine a woman who believes it is right and good she is a woman.A woman who honors her experience and tells her stories.Who refuses to carry the sins of others within her body and life.Imagine a woman who trusts and respects herself.A woman who listens to her needs and desires.Who meets them with tenderness and grace.Imagine a woman who acknowledges the past's influence on the present.A woman margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-38366424941443039172008-08-11T11:37:00.002-04:002008-08-11T12:07:13.587-04:00perceptionYesterday I was explaining to my best friend that there's a drastic difference between my perception and J's when it comes to our relationship.When everything is going along just fine, when we're in one of the good spots, I become entirely swept up in the emotions of that situation. I think that everything is perfect and that J is perfect and that we're destined to be together and that nothing margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-47074556154505108932008-08-07T08:42:00.002-04:002008-08-07T08:47:54.509-04:00a real attemptOk, folks, I have made a decision. And it's a biggie, so prepare yourselves.For the next month I am going to actually try. Try what you ask? Everything. I'm going to eat well, exercise, communicate with my husband, work hard at my job, keep my house clean, not watch too much TV, make sure that Darwin is being constantly stimulated, etc.I expect that life will fix everything for me, that all margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-13576685360516017562008-07-26T21:52:00.005-04:002008-12-10T15:31:04.303-05:00I haven't been writing much. I haven't been thinking much. Hell, I haven't been doing much of anything.We're going through another bad spot ... days and nights filled with tension, arguments, avoiding even the smallest physical contact. The emotions in our house are so tight right now, only relaxing when in the company of others or when trying to act normal for Darwin.This marriage was a margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-44872711125644294332008-07-07T08:23:00.000-04:002008-07-07T08:24:40.393-04:00a question for the wise ...The goal is to live life lovingly, filled with compassion and forgiveness and acceptance. But how do you do that without letting everyone walk all over you?margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-54739410501497210312008-07-04T22:57:00.003-04:002008-07-04T23:27:29.914-04:00Happy 4th of July, my darlings.And, as is my own little tradition, I shall now name the things I most love and admire and cherish about the US ...baseballcowboysapple pieLong live the USA, although let it also change in a million small and large ways.margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-89704044048422524712008-06-26T08:47:00.003-04:002008-06-26T08:54:14.790-04:00fucking supreme courtYou all hear about the Exxon Valdez settlement?The Supreme Court decided yesterday that the settlement for Alaskan fishermen after the Exxon Valdez disaster 20 years ago will be cut by $2 billion. TWO BILLION DOLLARS!!! The S.C. decided that the settlement for the case couldn't exceed the amount of money needed to compensate for actual losses, which comes to $507 million dollars. The original margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-32347463159169882522008-06-24T08:38:00.003-04:002008-06-24T09:20:59.521-04:00the journeyYou may have noticed that I haven't been chronicling my yoga adventure as much as everyone would like. I apologize for that.Well, folks, it's unbelievably difficult. I've been encountering about a million different roadblocks in myself and in the people around me. I am almost positive that both my husband and my best friend don't actually want me to succeed in this. Weird, right? And maybe margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-49531923486156553332008-05-28T10:58:00.003-04:002008-05-28T11:56:04.535-04:00one week downWell, I'm one week in to my six week yoga adventure. I am, in a word, exhausted. But that is partially my own fault, as I totally over-extended myself this past week (what with having two jobs, a baby, planning a birthday bash for my best friends, and starting this yoga thing).I didn't make it to 6 classes this week, I only actually made it to 3. And I spent a good long while beating myself upmargarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-47448195959320569902008-05-20T08:42:00.001-04:002008-05-20T08:42:50.869-04:0040 days ... Ok, folks, I know it's been a long time since I've written, but I've got something big to share.Starting today I am going to be doing a yoga workshop called "40 Days to Personal Revolution" at the Baptiste yoga studio. This is something I've been eying for a while, but just recently decided to actually take the plunge. I am totally nervous and freaked out, concerned with how well this is margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-49709323727564510092008-04-22T09:12:00.003-04:002008-12-10T15:31:04.684-05:00Mother's dayIn honor of Earth Day, I walked to work this morning. It's sheer laziness that I don't do it every day, but today was the first day I've done so since I started working here.The morning reminded me so much of summertime in California. There was dew on the grass and I could see my breath in the bright morning sunlight. I wore a light jacket because it was too cold to just go in short-sleeves, margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-63776313239345923102008-04-08T09:08:00.002-04:002008-04-08T09:31:23.230-04:00seriously?Now, I know that there have been rumors of this for months, but when I opened up my hotmail account this morning I found that those rumors are true ...New Kids on the Block are reuniting. They're going to put out an album and go on tour and do all that real band stuff.Do you think that they're going to go for the same age bracket they appealed to before? Or are they going to try to re-interest margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-70587262404754517082008-03-13T09:57:00.003-04:002008-03-13T10:31:47.122-04:00oh, the sickness ...I am, to put it mildly, sick. Definitely on the mend, but still sick, sick, sick. Been sick since Saturday. Ready to be done now. Tired of the chapped nose from wiping it, and the sore throat from coughing. Tired of feeling like crap.But, on the kind of good side, I've been the kind of sick where I have absolutely no appetite, so I haven't been eating anything. I know, I know, that makes memargarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-64872762778010466322008-03-05T11:39:00.005-05:002008-03-05T14:18:07.149-05:00self-sabotageHere is my question for you today ...Why do we self-sabotage? Why do we not do the things that we know we need to, even though by doing them we will end up happier and healthier?There are two examples of this in my life: - My husband says, "You don't communicate with me. If you talked to me more then we'd have an easier time of it." Which makes me talk to him less, because I margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-15254797349054370212008-03-03T08:37:00.006-05:002008-03-05T10:00:07.590-05:00so much to tell!I have a job ... did I tell you that yet? No, probably not. I'm working as an administrative assistant for a small but prestigious product development company in Somerville. The office is 1 mile from my house, right off the bike path. My hours are 8am-12pm, which means that Darwin still gets to be my priority and I've got time to work on the website. There isn't much for me to do right now, margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-21933140362664744082008-02-17T23:32:00.004-05:002008-12-10T15:31:05.648-05:00hola amigos!I'm home! There were many ups and downs, but all in all it was a fabulous vacation.The High Points:- seeing Mayan pyramids- unbelievably delicious and cheap food- the warm, turquoise water of the Caribbean- swimming in a cenote ... clear cool water and tons of fish- having the opportunity to spend time alone with my husband, being able to reconnect with him- watching Darwin's joy at discovering margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-52282363892575126742008-02-07T22:07:00.000-05:002008-02-07T22:24:50.626-05:00breatherWell, my birthday has come and gone. A year older and not too much wiser. It was a lovely day filled with hanging out with the little one and then many friends coming over to spend the evening with me, munching on burgers and chatting. Couldn't have asked for better.Lordy, I am exhausted, folks. I'm going on vacation next week and I really, really need it. I feel like every single second of margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-91359459756987553202008-01-29T08:58:00.000-05:002008-01-29T08:59:14.915-05:00happy birthday to youhappy birthday to youhappy birthday darling laurenhappy birthday to youmargarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-31750778480820664662008-01-28T12:49:00.000-05:002008-01-28T12:50:55.238-05:00happy birthday to mehappy birthday to mehappy birthday dear margarethappy birthday to me!margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-28414437624018774362008-01-21T09:22:00.000-05:002008-01-28T12:51:18.289-05:00day ... somethingI seem to have run out of creative juice for right now. Not a big deal, I'm not beating myself up about it. I'm just going to take a little break and then come back to it.It's nice being inspired to create. It's nice having that desire there. And that is what I really wanted to bring back into my life. So, job well done, I guess!margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-90416502411904301202008-01-18T12:48:00.000-05:002008-01-18T13:14:24.959-05:00inspirationYesterday, in a moment of being very open about my weaknesses (which actually doesn't happen often on a serious level), I confessed to my best friend, K, that I need help with this whole exercising thing. K paused for a moment and then said, "When you did this before, when you were all super active and lost all that weight, what inspired you then? What kept you going then? How did you do it?"margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-58414092275467818892008-01-18T12:47:00.000-05:002008-12-10T15:31:06.019-05:00day 9Taken with my fancy new macro lens.margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5851253.post-45257635692801086572008-01-18T12:46:00.000-05:002008-01-18T12:47:21.945-05:00day 8Nothing. I wasn't feeling it this day and, as opposed to doing what I should have done and pushing myself to do something creative, I just didn't.Boo to me.margarethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02332870520218158445noreply@blogger.com0