Monday, December 25, 2006

It has been really hard trying to find a time to actually sit down and write anything. One month old and all he's doing is feeding and yelling and sleeping ... and he really does all three things best when I'm involved. So I've been spending all my time with the little one.

But here it is Christmas morning and he's sleeping in a sling, strapped to my chest, and I finally have a moment to write.

So how is it suddenly being a mom? Totally overwhelming. I cry about once a day ... not from sadness, just from the sheer joy of this thing I made, and from the uncontrolled utter panic he brings to my life. I just can't believe the permanence of the entire thing! But he's beautiful and amazing and I feel so lucky to know him. And my husband is the most wonderful human being I've ever met, even with all his faults.

And as an explanation for the picture ... my best friend and I have a habit of giving each other REALLY ugly socks for pretty much every occasion. This year we totally outdid ourselves with the Christmas sock ugliness, so I have to share.

Much love and merry Christmas to all.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006


Ok, here's my dilemma ...

My darling husband will never make enough money so that I won't have to work and will be able to stay home with the baby. That's just true, which means that I need to have a job.

But, I really don't want to have anybody else in charge of raising my child. I feel like there's a very specific reason I wanted to have a baby and just shipping the kid off to daycare so that I can go to work totally screws with my plans for having the baby.

I don't mind being poor, but being able to pay rent and bills would be nice.

So what I need is a way to make money from home. Doesn't have to be a lot of money, but it does have to be some money. I can type 70 wpm now, which means that with practice I could very easily be up to 90. I am an excellent editor. I have awesome artistic skills. I don't mind doing totally mindless tasks like stuffing envelopes. I just need a way to make some money.

My business teacher said that successful people think and talk about what they want.

So there it is. I need a way to make money from home. If you have any ideas, please please please share.